Excruciating Suffering: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
This condition typically begin with severe discomfort behind a single eye that persists for several hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Ancient medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially classified by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.
In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.
National guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.
But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The official guidance need revising to reflect a